My Testimonial: “When Jesus – Yeshua Found Me”

It was a lifetime ago, when I was six years old, that I first learned about Jesus – Yeshua. About 3 weeks before this, I’d experienced and survived the nightmare event known as “Halloween” and because of this experience, I was enveloped by fear unlike I’d ever known before. This was my first exposure to total unadulterated evil which before this I really had no idea that this type of evil existed.

My family life had been filled with tumult for as far back as I can remember. I do believe that in their way my parents loved me and my brothers as well as each other, but a too young marriage (16 & 17 years old) combined with alcohol, poor finances and 3 children by the age of 23 put an incredible strain on all of us. It seemed at times that life was just one battle right after another as us kids watched on in tears. Sadly, this was a type of evil that you can get used to…it had actually become “almost normal”. When I hear people ask “how can he or she continue on in an abusive relationship?” I totally get it. The bad behavior becomes routine, even expected…and the making up becomes as addictive as the alcohol. The good times between battles, seem to glue the broken pieces together, however, only temporarily. I’ve compared this type of relationship to the most beautiful glass vase that you received as a gift on your wedding day and one day it gets knocked over and you glue it back together and set it back on the shelf, only for it to be broken over and over again and finally one day, it’s unrecognizable with nothing left of its original beauty. At any rate, this was a brief picture of my life growing up.

It was Sunday morning and my parents, whom had had their usual Saturday night brawl were still sleeping. I got up very quietly so as not to wake my brothers and I dressed myself warmly to slip outdoors. I still remember the chilly brisk air and how good it felt to get out of the tiny apartment. It seemed to me as if the breeze was washing away the hurt and pain of the night before. I walked aimlessly for a few blocks kicking at the dried leaves. Then I stopped as I heard something I’d never heard before…beautiful singing was coming from an old house that sat quite near the sidewalk…I just stood there in awe and listened. The door opened and a man stepped out, I really don’t remember what he looked like, I just remember he was tall and had kind eyes. He asked me if I’d like to come in, I didn’t even hesitate when he reached out his hand and I put my hand into his. We walked up the steps and through the door to the living room where there was a lot of adults and children. In my memory, when I entered the house, there was a warmth I felt that was totally different than the warmth you get from a fire.

The man asked me if I knew who Jesus is and I told him no. He said that today I would learn about Jesus. They began to sing again and I just listened because I had never heard the song before. I couldn’t tell you what was preached, but I do remember listening intently. After the man finished talking, he asked me my name and introduced me to the children who were present. A lady came and sat down with the children and the adults sat together and talked. The lady read a story about the Son of God named Jesus who came to earth to save me from my sins (however, I had no clue what exactly a sin was) and then we sang Jesus Loves Me and River Jordan is Deep and Wide; I remember that I especially loved the hand movements that went with this song. Both songs stuck with me and to this day, my favorite song is “Jesus Loves me”. It was so much consolation to learn about this man who loved me so much that he willingly died for me.

When it was time for the little “home” church service to end, I was told that I was welcome to join them again the next Sunday. I was so thrilled to learn about Jesus and His love that I wanted to share it with my family, I didn’t think that they knew about Jesus. When I tried to share what I’d learned, I was shut down and told not to talk about it and to forget about it. I remember feeling totally distraught. I was also given the lecture about talking to strangers and to NEVER go into a strange house (a lecture I have given to my own children more than once). Needless to say, I didn’t go again the next Sunday.

My heart kept telling me that I’d learned a truth that day that I would never forget. From that day forward, I have been continually seeking Jesus: wanting to know Him and Heavenly Father better. Sadly I would take every opportunity to sneak to church (which I recognize now was a sin for me to go against my parents wishes), but I had such a hunger to know more about Him. I also craved the warmth as well as the safe feeling of the congregations of the different churches that I attended throughout my growing up years.

I’m not going to lie to you and tell you that because of this, my life became and is perfect, but I learned very early in my life, that every time I would find myself falling because of some foolish mistake caused by myself or another person, Heavenly Father through His Son Jesus – Yeshua is always there to pick me up. I learned that His LOVE is ETERNAL and knowledge of this LOVE does bring PEACE.

Please read these two blogs:

Should Christians Participate in Halloween?

A Sheltered Life

Have you considered that even though, the pandemic is still roaring it’s way around the world, as Christians…at least for the time being…we live a sheltered life in America!

It’s true, we definitely have our share of let downs and disappointments, but in most places in America we can sleep peaceful at night and when it comes right down to it, we wake-up in the morning to a day that isn’t a whole lot different than yesterday and 10 years ago…except for now, we’re wearing masks and social distancing again because of a new strain of the Covid Virus. Our nation’s working class has faced ups and downs in unemployment and the economics of this country has been on a roller coaster ride since it’s foundation. We’ve always had a population of poor and rich and some in between…we just need to keep the faith and trust that God our Father in Heaven has a plan!

I’m not saying that we should stop paying attention to what’s going on around us or lay down and play dead to the woe’s that do exist in the “Good Ole USA”. I’m not saying that we should just live in LA-LA land and sing that old Doris Day song – Que Sera Sera (Whatever will be will be). However, we need to remember that Whatever is God’s Will …will be…

What I am saying is: let’s go to bed each night being thankful to Heavenly Father for the protection he’s afforded us today and when we are blessed to wake up each morning we need to ask him…”How would you like me to serve you and my fellowman today?” There are millions of Christians around this world who don’t know the meaning of a peaceful night of sleep or the joy of waking up to another day. 1 out of every 8 Christians in this world live in countries where persecution is the norm.

All of that being said: Let’s not forget that as sons and daughters of the first Adam, we don’t deserve any of the blessings that Heavenly Father bestows upon us. However! He LOVES us that much! He actively works to “seek and save” us!

Scriptures from KJV ~ King James Version of the Bible.

Luke 19:10 For the Son of man is come to seek and to save that which was lost.

Romans 5:10 For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life.

Take into consideration that we have an enemy who is dangerous and his goal is to “seek and kill” he’s the power that perpetuates the virus, he’s the power behind our earthly governments, he’s the power who pursues us “like a roaring lion, seeking someone to destroy”.

1 Peter 5:8  Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour.

John 10:10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

WE must remain vigilant and aware of the fact that our adversary Satan will not stop pursuing us and as Christians, we need to expect and be prepared for persecution! We need to put on the full armor of God and stand against the enemy, the thief who’s out to steal our salvation, kill our faith and destroy our trust. We need to wake up one another to these facts, we need to wake up our children, our grandchildren, they need to know that there are extremist here in America that would do us harm.

Every pulpit in America needs to be preaching the fact that we’re in a mighty battle and without the armor of God, we have no chance of winning the battle. I’m not trying to put you in a down mood and if you remember your Scriptures you also remember that Jesus the Messiah – Yeshua Ha Mashiach warned us that we can’t be followers of Him without experiencing persecution, but he also tells us to be joyful and keep our eyes on Heaven.

Matthew 10:28 And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.

You might say…that’s a peculiar Scripture to use when talking about persecution, as it’s reminding us that God our Heavenly Father is to be feared…that is, if we give ourselves over to the enemy.

The minute, we equate such things as churches being closed because of the misplaced guidance of authorities over the virus as persecution, we’re taking away from the potency and reality of what is true persecution. I’m talking about the physical pain of wounds, hunger, sleeping in excrement and violence beyond anything anyone of us in America can imagine – even Hollywood with all of their writers wouldn’t get it right because they don’t have a clue. Then there’s the countries where there’s the death penalty just for owning a Bible or any other Christian related items. For those of us living in America and a few other places in this world, Satan is working out his plan in a more subtle manner using material things such as the movies, the internet and other means to separate us from God, WE MUST RESIST!

Persecution of the Church has been a part of Christian existence since Jesus – Yeshua walked this earth. Even Paul (Saul of Tarsus)one of the foremost Disciples of Christ, before his conversion was guilty of persecuting the church. So my question is: Who do we think we are as Christians that we are exempt from this possibility of persecution? There’s no way that I can see that America is a favored nation in the sight of God.

John 15:18-19 If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you. 19 If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.

So no matter what happens tomorrow: Read the WORD of GOD, keep your faith and trust and let’s be there for one another for when real persecution comes and we must know…it will come! Maybe not today and maybe not tomorrow, but it’s inevitable.

John 14:6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.